Today its 8th April, 2017, 1:42 AM in the night and i am not studying.
I don't know why i think myself i can do it, even knowing the fact that just knowing this won't make a tiny bit of a difference in my scores or my knowledge.
I have very high ambitions about my life, and i am so excited to pursue them at any cost, but as of now i see no signs of those kicking inn from any fucking direction in my big thought box, which apparently just thinks of just beautiful ideas of doing work at like the best possible way known to mankind, but instead i prefer just procrastinating every night.
As a matter of fact i had my Boards and some actually most of engg entrances going on in these few weeks, and i haven't studied a tiny bit one should to attain the goal.
I was not able to clear the JEE Mains 2017 which was a fairly easy paper for a good student.
My perception of myself in my mind or whatever is like i understand almost everything so i can do it, i never attempt to revise stuff for a longer period of time, I have attended almost every classes i had opted for except for the last part in school and mostly at time when i slept the whole evening :P
I just don't know why i’ve turned trap nation on full volume and just typing on like i have no work assigned.
Yes one more thing i always or at least from these 2-3 months am studying from the internet via electronic media devices, from which i easily get distracted. I have configured Open DNS into my router, which itself explains that i have no access to porn/adult content. But wait it's just my router, what if i used some other source of internet. And there’s where my source of biggest disaster lies! JIO helped me reaching this utter satisfaction which hurts me deep inside because i know at the age when one should employ hands to work, i instead.
I wish, i could do well in the very moment i live, and not live up to false dream with no grounds.
PEACE OUT.
8-04-2017
